I am sure everyone remembers what happened. I am sure everyone remembers EXACTLY where they were when they heard the news. What they were doing, what was happening around them, maybe even what they were wearing.
I had just woken up. I was sitting on the couch feeding my 4 month old son, watching the Today Show. We had just flown back from California the day before, so we were both a little tired & off schedule. I turned on the TV right after the first plane hit. Matt Lauer & Katie Couric were both confused & trying to figure out what was going on. Jason was getting ready to go to work. Then he left for work, as soon as he shut the door behind him, the second plane hit. I remember holding #1, still in my pajamas & running out to the parking lot of our apartment building-- running out to tell Jason a second plane hit, they think its on purpose. It was awful.
And everything that has happened since has been awful.
Today, before #1 went to school, I had to explain to him what happened. I was afraid that somehow it would come up in school & I wanted him to hear about it from us. Just thinking about what I was going to tell him brought me to tears. And the tears kept coming as I explained to him that bad men made a bad choice & flew planes into buildings & lots of people died. Then I tried to explain why I was so upset. I don't think it helped & I am pretty sure I am not going to win any mother of year awards for my talk this morning. I just wonder when I won't get choked up & upset when I think about that time.
And now I am angry. Angry that today, I had to take away a little of his innocence about the world we live in.
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